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	CANCER June 23 - July 23

Don’t let the slowness of change keep you from doing what you want in 2009. The New Year begins with astrological activity in your sector of joint resources; Jupiter, Mercury, Chiron and Neptune stimulate financial matters. Valentine’s Day could collide with career aspirations, as Venus both energizes promotions and brings love to the surface. You may be tempted to plan a trip abroad, as action-oriented Mars encourages travel during March. What better way to see positive reflections than to treat yourself when the Sun and Vesta travel through your Sign in July? As Pallas Athene, Saturn and Mercury join forces in your communication house during August, you’re able to prepare for home decorating in September and October. Romance blossoms during November. A particularly sexy partner may show up just in time in December.

--- thanks for the link TJ! :) interesting horoscope.. love it :)

Source: http://metropolis.co.jp/tokyo/recent/horoscope2009.asp

i always take pride in the fact that i'm part of the group that started ITO in ACS. but i've never felt so left out as i did during the christmas party. in fact, i felt so alone even when i was with the team. maybe it's because we got our own table with our own name on it and not "ITO", while the rest of them has "ITO" on their tables. maybe it's because of the fact that our office is in makati while all of them are already at the new site and they got to know each other early on. or maybe because we've been used to being the <i>"only"</i> ITO group in ACS Phils... it may sound weird, and i know i should be glad that i'm not on the same boat as the new teams are (ah, the awkwardness of doing something new and all that stuff)... but it still gets me thinking that sometimes, when it comes to our team, not everything is fair.

sure, we get to have the same, if not higher, salaries. we're familiar with what we should be doing. we're the pioneers of the org. all that good stuff. but when it gets right down to it, seems like nobody cares. just a little more and i would assume that everyone has forgotten about our little team. it's sad.

i know it's just me. must be the christmas thingies. but i've been feeling like this since late october... *sigh*

yes it is.. ^_^ the air has that chilly feeling and the christmas traffic is there... and people are smiling and being generous...

if only i'm not stressing about this JG thingie, then everything will be alright. i said i won't be as active anymore, but hello... the situation had me coming back. d@mn. work plus this JG stuff... not such a good mix. heck. i know i'm not the only person busy with work but then why oh why am i one of the lucky few who get to mix the two together? thank god i've got sane people with me... *hugs the lucky few: paoji, mish, TJ, donna* (edward you're out coz you're not sane! lol jk!!)

thanks for coming out yesterday guys. i know we've all got stuff to do besides this JG... hopefully we get out of this alive and get to live our normal lives - away from all this insane mess. ^_^

as for me... if ever I get out of this alive, I'm going on hiatus. Permanent or not, I don't know. 

Note to self: Never get yourself into something that you said you won't be participating in, especially during the part where most of the original planners go invi-mode. Big NO NO.

Lesson learned? CHECK!

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Be happy for me! I finally got to update this blog even with all the busy-ness and stuff! Now if only I could find the time to upload pics and blog some more...

Random people: How do you do it? I mean, with the busy-ness of your life, how do you get the time to upload pics and blog 2-3x a day?

or maybe it's just me that's got this problem.

*shrugs*

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during our Glorietta meetup yesterday, Ces sent me an SMS saying that Marky Cielo has moved on. At first I didn't know if that was serious or not, but knowing that Ces is a good friend of Marky, I know she won't be joking about it.

My condolences go to the Cielo family and to Ces. I mourn for your loss.

too bad that kind of guy only exists in our dreams :P

 

- the ngarag moments/hours/weeks/months
- all the planning/organizing and cramming
- the laughter, blood, sweat and tears shed
- the running around and panic come show time
and most especially...

the dear, sweet, funny and awesome people that i've learned to love in spite and despite of all the annoying things that we'd have to go through with each other

it's been an amazing ride, one that i'll always remember and cherish forever. i've learned a lot and now, it's time to move on.

this is not a goodbye... it's a "'till we meet again"

just watched kitkat's uploaded video of yunho being so uber fatherly to this kid and it made me swooon. *sigh*

these are the things i miss about the boys :(

that clip made me so glad that i pre-ordered both versions of their albums... tsk tsk the main reason i got online this early was to cancel the cd+photobook version.. i saw this and boom. no more cancellations. i'm going to order those 2 versions to feed these boys. bwahahaha

tsk tsk.. i am beginning to love jae's hair. whereas chunnie.. hmmm.. bleh.

yunnie.. i <33 yunnie.

lots and lots of good stuff happening this week. definitely worth the less than 4 hours of sleep i got for the past 5 days. lol...

of course, everybody at work is excited about October 1st. Yey for the super generous big bosses of ACS-ITO. got to love those big guys! haha..

and of course, the promotion's just great. things are looking up  i know i'm rambling, but wth. i'm happy.

anyhoo~ if you guys know any hardcore SD Analysts, please have them forward their resumes to me: dettedeleon@gmail.com. Very good compensation (27k starting, plus incentives). yebah.

cheers for the future! ^________^

i am internet-less!!!!!!!!!!

d@mn PLDT DSL...

i am so going to get Globe Broadband.

grrrrr...

ad i haven't downloaded ep04 of 90210 yet... plus the new episode of gossip girl!

aaarrgghhh

*grumbles*

my head is going to explode.

been reading the KL thread in PEx for over a week now and i've got too much info on my head.

still need to read the SG thread, as well as research about Bintan

whew...

i can't wait for our amazing race-like trip next month.

yey!

iPhone - the bane of ITO corporations.

seriously.

this phone has done more harm than good. (in my opinion anyway)

and no. i am not bitter.

- explanation to follow. when i'm all calmed down.

I found myself in a familiar meeting two weeks ago... it's like deja vu. I recognize it happening some 4 or 5 months ago, with the same people, same discussion, same plans, same agenda, same everything.

Four or five months ago, I was enthusiastic to start whatever that was given to me as a task. And just like anything that's not right, that enthusiasm faded. That task just became something to do because i have to. The enthusiasm I felt, the need to do it because it's right... it isn't there anymore. Maybe it's the people, maybe it's the task itself, maybe it's a whole other factor but one thing is sure... that meeting two weeks ago, i don't see anything coming out of that. It'll be another task that's not even in my job description but it's something i have to do because I agreed to it. Why did I agree? Because there's no reason not to. And it sounds okay to me that time. Fun even. But now that I think of it thoroughly... *sigh*

You can say I am feeling a bit hopeless. Well, who wouldn't? Two years. Two years. I can't say I wasn't happy in those two years, but as they say... I'm not getting any younger. It makes me wonder... what if I left a year ago, will I still be in the same boat? Maybe not.

I hate what-ifs. It gives you the feeling that you didn't make the right decision. Sucks.

Now the question is, what should I do?

*sigh*

I wish i know the answer to that question

*grumbles and immerses self in Breaking Dawn*

ok.. i've been too busy lately.

nothing wrong with that really, but then.. i just realized i don't know what the eff i'm busy about. but what i do know is that i've been thinking too much these past few days.

and that scares me. too much thinking means there are some things that's totally bothering me. i mean, why would i think about it that much if it's not bothering me, right?

this is getting crazy.

currently looking for these movies on DVD:

- La vita è bella (Life is Beautiful)
- Mr. Holland's Opus
- The Pianist

already sent an email to parconline.biz to inquire... saw the items on Amazon. but the amazon site freaks me out. seriously. or maybe i can go to a video shop here and look for those titles. i actually just want the first two movies. the third one's my brother's. *shrugs* and i'm looking forward to watching Mama Mia. looks interesting. plus i adore songs from Abba. ^_^V

my iPod's functional again. i brought new earphones. blah. i need to update the playlists. and remove some. yey for private music while on the threadmill!

and about that school thingie concerning my brother. all's well and good. mrs. principal got scared of discussing the case in a courtroom.

just a random post. i don't get to update this anymore. *sigh*

next time~

my brother's high school is driving me mad.

i swear... if things don't get better soon, i'll sue their sorry asses.

explain more when i have the time and patience.

grrr...

it was nice to escape for a while...

superheroes, damsels in distress, charming princes...

mythical creatures, legends, uncomplicated relationships. well, sort of.

it's a nice feeling.

let me savor it for a while before i return to reality

the stup!d cross-posting feature does not work. well, from the multiply site side anyway. i posted something in multiply and i made sure i checked the "Cross-post to LiveJournal: badbadz" option .... dun dun dun dun ... nothing happened. and i even waited 24 hours to see if it'll appear. woe to me T_T

but at least multiply gets updated whenever i post something in livejournal. FTW. T_T

*sigh*

anyway, 2 random thingies:

1. The Dark Knight is so freaking awesome! hell, Christian Bale is hot hot hot. And I applaud Heath Ledger for his portrayal of the menace Joker. Oh, and when you watch this on an IMAX theater, do not, under any circumstances, sit anywhere on the first 8 rows from the screen. You'll have a headache after the movie if you do >.<

2. One of Korea's most desirable men, Kwon Sang Woo, is getting married. I am heartbroken. This is the end of an era. How long till Lee Byung Hun, Bae Young Jun, Won Bin and Choi In Sung gets married? *sniffles*

there you go~ i need to post a long entry. i miss being a blogger with long entries. ^_^ 

i've enabled cross-posting in my multiply account...

so hopefully this pathetic excuse of a livejournal account will be "maintained" well.

hopefully~

i miss wedspawn's fics. T_T

i miss reading fics T_T

what's the sense of saying that it's news if it isn't confirmed yet?

if you don't have anything reliable to say, just keep your mouth shut.

and hello, journalism 101 tells us that it's imperative that all parties get their sides aired unless of course they refuse to say anything.

if your site is full of sh!t, then you don't deserve readers.

literally... it feels like i haven't updated this blog for a month. ^^

i'm not that updated with kpop anymore. heck, i was surprised to know that TVXQ's got a new single out already. Just saw the PV of Shine and it was good. i like it. and just like tintin, i was amused by the water that was splashing everywhere. i like it a lot better than Summer Dream. but Summer Dream is cute, if not for the extremely gay choreography. it kinda reminds me of Sky. *shudders* guess it just has to grow on me before i like it, lol XD

i am not very happy... no i'm not

i just want to cry myself to sleep

emo stuff.

*sniff*


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